I did not have the momentum needed to tackle absorbing the Musica Practica, but I did find this quote towards the end: “ It is we who are playing, though still it is true by proxy; but can one imagine the concert - later on ? - as exclusively a workshop, from which nothing spills over - no dream, no imaginary, in short, no 'soul' and where all the musical art is absorbed in a praxis with no remainder” that interested me because it made me think about how in the moment something can be gained, but maybe with something like the passage of time, that experience can dwindle, and arguably become un-important.
For me this quote describes my process as a photographer because, especially for prep work like developing, I know my process, and I can show it to people to,in some way, WOW them, but when Im just doing the developing I find myself get more in the motions of remembering the steps than I am waiting to see what I get at the end. Now I’m agitated that I have to acknowledge that forgetting either the steps, or what I’ve made, can be recycled into proving that at some point there is no memory, or significance of the object or process to me. However I do want to push back on this, for my own sake, because I feel like there is still some form of me in my work. I thinky only in an environmental or contextual case that I could truly choose to abandon or disown my own work.
The update for my progress is that I did make a tester for how to both scan my negatives in as well as cyanotype said negatives onto paper. The major issue I ran into was making sure my paper dries properly, and to place my negative on the right side because both of these elements being slightly damp meant I got a weird slimy/wet look to the final print. At the moment I'm doing a bit more paper testing before committing to formatting my finalized pages and scanning in my negatives, but I feel confident, with the sun allowing, that I can finish and bind my booklet in time.
